A Letter to My Future Wife

Hey Beautiful,

I hope your day is going okay. I can't wait to see, and meet, you. I know, I know I'll see you in our future, but that doesn't help me right now. I prayed for you- and for me- again. I prayed for your health, your family, and your day. Also, I prayed for the day we begin our journey. I prayed for contentment and stillness of heart for me. As you'll learn, I'm going to need more of them. I prayed for your forgiveness. You see you won't be my first love, but you'll be my last love. The other loves that I've had were amazing and wonderful women- but your THE MOST amazing and wonderful woman. Though, I've loved others on my way to your heart; God used those experiences to make me stronger and better able to love you.

One of them showed me how to go with the flow and not be stuck on my plan. Though it's good to have one, don't be tied to it. She also opened my eyes to the world beyond our small city and taught me the struggles of "the" city. She showed me the sacrifices that parents make for their children's future. And revealed to me that I am worthy of being loved. She also, taught me how to be confident in who I am. That I am who I am and that I shouldn't hide it. We were VERY different, but we had lots of fun and were able to balance each other out in many ways.

The next love was a hard one to let go. She and I saw eye to eye on almost everything- at least on all the big things. She could articulate her beliefs and could hold her own with my family- as you'll discover it can be difficult to do sometimes, though they mean well. She knew her way around Reformed Baptist theology, just like you do. She even said the church felt like home. She showed me that girls that are Biblical, and academic, are out there. She reinforced to me that I am worth being loved, and that people out there can love me for me. She seemed to be perfect, and hit all the boxes. I still can't say, if I understand why we ended. Maybe she's one that got away? She taught me to be in the moment and take things slow, to enjoy where we are, and when we are.

Through these, and many other types of relationships, God has made me stronger, and more reliant on Him, for me- and for you. When faced with the difficult moments, He is still there. He has shown me the meaning of leaning on Him and not my own understanding. He will bring you into my life at the perfect time and in the perfect place for Him to work in our lives. He has brought me closer to Himself. He has shown me what it means to be a man of God. He's given me insight into myself, through Him and the wise counselors He's placed in my life, and given me clarity that I am worthy of being loved, that I can have a confidence in who He's made me to be, and that in order to love you that I need to trust and love Him more.

I'm sorry you weren't my first love, but know that those few that came before have led me to you and have taught me how to love you better than I would have if they had not been in my life. Know that even though you aren't my first, you are certainly the last. You are perfect, to me even in your imperfection, and I can't wait to know you and go through life with you. I'm excited to hear how God has used your life to prepare you for us. I pray always for you, even though, I don't yet know you (at least not as my life partner and best friend, yet). I look forward to our life together, honoring and serving Christ together; and raising children to seek after God with one another.

To my future wife.

Sincerely,

Your future husband