A New Journey...filled with anxiety and anticipation.

On October 1, 2019, my life changed. The change did not begin on that day though. The change began in August of that same year. In August I found a second job and on September 30 I worked my final day as a youth pastor. With these a new journey began. One that has been filled with both anxiety and anticipation for the future.

In September, I returned to non-seminary school, as I had been in seminary while on staff, in pursuit of a teaching license unsure if teaching was, and is, my calling in life. Over the past school year, I have had many thoughts of excitement towards becoming an elementary teacher but have had many moments of missing ministry.

In January of 2020, this year, I started a young adult group primarily serving the college and early career individuals in my church. Through this experience I have been able to return to studying the Bible for teaching and leading. It has also re-invigorated and driven my desire and reinforced my call to vocational ministry.

The crazy thing about life is that God works to lead us where He wants us, even though we may not understand where He is taking us. I am now determined and confident in my call to full-time ministry and have re-applied to seminary. But I would not be in this place had I not first stepped down from vocational ministry.

God works all things for His glory and for our good even when we don't understand how He's working or where He's leading. Remember that Paul the man most dedicated to the destruction of Believer's became one of Christianity's greatest leaders. Our lives are filled with ups and downs, twists and turns but God is always in control. We simply need to remain faithful and trusting in Him to lead us. Sometimes, as in my case, that means leaving one opportunity only to be called to a similar one later.

I may not know the future or what/how or where I will serve in ministry again, but I know God is leading me to do so. I am trusting, even in the midst of the unknowns, that He will lead me where He wants me to be. And this is my prayer for you as well, to trust God even in the midst of the unknown and uncertain.